You love hard.
Like, your nervous system is on fire, kind of hard.
Like “I’ll hold space for your pain while gaslighting my own” kind of hard.
You care. Deeply. Immediately. Without hesitation.
You’re the first to send the check-in text.
The one who notices the shift in tone before anyone else even knows there was a shift.
You feel EVERYTHING.
And you want to be loved like that in return.
But when it doesn’t come back in real time?
You spiral. JUST AS HARD.
Not because you’re dramatic—
but because your body’s convinced love = loss unless proven otherwise.
So you start analyzing.
Did I say too much?
Was I too available?
Should I have waited an hour to text back?
Your whole body braces for the emotional drop—
even when things are calm.
Even when someone’s trying.
Because calm doesn’t feel safe yet—it feels suspicious.
You weren’t taught how to receive love.
You were taught how to anticipate loss.
To scan for the exit before the entrance even closes behind you.
So now, even when love is safe?
You’re waiting for it to disappear.
To shift.
To unravel.
To confirm that the version of you they love was just the mask you wore to feel worthy.
But babe, hear me:
You are not too much.
You are not unlovable once they “really get to know you.”
You’re just used to performing your worth before anyone gets close enough to see it for themselves.
And I say this with all the softness and all the fire:
That’s not your truth.
That’s your trauma speaking fluently.
You don’t need to shrink your love to be safe.
You need to feel safe enough to stop overfunctioning for love that’s already yours.
And I promise—when your body learns the difference?
You’ll never chase that breadcrumb bullshit again.
You don’t fall in love… you freefall into a fantasy and call it fate. You’re obsessed with what could be instead of seeing what actually is.
You sabotage the stable ones. Because when someone feels safe, your body calls it boring…or worse, suspicious.
You stay wayyy too long in confusion. Hoping they’ll wake up, grow up, or suddenly become emotionally available like it’s a Netflix redemption arc.
Jenna Wahl is a relationship alignment coach guiding survivors to have deeply honest relationships by using Body Aligned Myofascial Release Techniques
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